A groundbreaking portrayal of gender, identity and the unshakable bonds of twinship. Identical twins Mark and Alex have always defined themselves in terms of each other. But when Alex decides to undergo a sex change operation, Mark starts to question his own sense of being. We follow the twins over three years as Alex slowly metamorphosis into a woman named Clair. Filmed in a fragmented, haunting style by a family friend, this is a unflinchingly candid, dreamy film.
"I really don't think I was born in this world as a man or a woman", confides Alex. "I think the process of changing was the path I was born to". But for Alex's once-identical twin Mark, his metamorphosis into a strikingly beautiful woman seems like a rejection of their relationship. "Part of who we were was lost in the transformation", Mark confides. "It's like you were cutting a cord".
Mark isn't the only one to feel confused by Alex's sex change. Mother, Jenny, describes it as; "one big fuck you". "We didn't talk for months. She refused to call me Clair, didn't want me to come home". Desperate for support, Clair clings to Mark. "I'm the only one she really has but she's not the only one I have", states Mark. "She seems just as upset and depressed as she did before and that's really scary for me". Hurt Clair retorts: "Mark has changed. He's a different person from who I grew up with".
From the very beginning, the twins were always intensely close. "We were in love with each other from the moment we were born", describes Mark. As young boys, they were dressed in different colors so that people could tell them apart. Mark was Red. Alex was Blue. By their early teens, they had formed an unbreachable alliance, shutting out the rest of the world.
But around this time, their world started to fall apart. "My mum thought we were a danger to each other", recalls Alex. Their parents divorced and their mother started living with another woman. "I wasn't as focused on them as I need to be", confesses Jenny. Alex came out as gay, thwarting Mark's own attempts to remain in the closet. They were ostracized at school. "It was like 'Oh, Jenny. You don't have normal children."
Then they started using drugs. "Their heavy, heavy drug use was a devastating discovery for me", states Jenny. By the time they were 14, Alex and Mark had come under the influence of an older DJ. He manipulated and sexually abused them both before raping a 10 year old in their presence. They tried to press charges but the case collapsed after the boy refused to go to court. Desperate, they attempted suicide. "I thought no one loved us".
After the suicide attempt, the twins were sent to separate boarding schools and banned from contacting each other. A few years later, Alex came out as transgendered. Initially horrified, his family tentatively offer their support. "I began to see the qualities I so appreciated about Alex still present in Clair", states Jenny. Clair's father pays for her gender realignment surgery.
Years on, there's a sense their bond has been strengthened by Clair's transformation. As Mark states; "No matter what happens, Clair and I will always be identical twins".