Colton Underwood has gone from looking for a soulmate to doing some soul-searching.
Today (April 14), after much speculation, the former Bachelor contestant came out as gay on Good Morning America, telling Robin Roberts that this past year forced him to do some "deep reflection."
“I’ve ran from myself for a long time, and I've hated myself for a long time, and I'm gay," the 29-year-old said during the exclusive sit-down. "I came to terms with that earlier this year and have been processing it, and the next step in all of this was sort of letting people know." Underwood revealed that he has known he was gay since high school, and that he was "different" from the age of 6.
"Still nervous, but... it's been a journey for sure," he shared.
During the interview, Roberts commented on how Underwood seemed to be relieved to finally be speaking his truth. He went onto describe the dark chapters in L.A. that ultimately led to his confession, even revealing how he once thought about how dying would be better than coming out.
“Overall, the reason 'why now' is because I got to a place where... I would’ve rather died than say I’m gay," he said. "There was a moment in L.A. that I woke up, and I didn’t think I was going to wake up. I didn’t have the intentions of waking up. I think that for me was my wake-up call.”
Underwood is a former pro-football player and was a contestant on Season 14 of The Bachelorette before becoming The Bachelor himself on Season 23 in 2019. He was dubbed "The Virgin Bachelor" during his time on the show, with his virginity becoming a storyline on his season. He made Bachelor history by dramatically jumping a fence in one episode. He ultimately chose Cassie Randolph, but in May 2020, the two announced they had broken up.
"I'm emotional in such a good, happy, positive way," he told Roberts. "I'm the happiest and healthiest I've ever been in my life — and that means the world to me."
Watch his full GMA interview in the video below.